So Detachment from Me. Huh? The ultimate goal, to let go of this life and ready myself for death. But I have already died. Many times before. Over and over, he resurrects me, sprinkles some stardust, pats me on the butt, and off on my day I go. But here is where God talks to me.
Me as God-
"Paulie, Paulie, Paulie. I see you have grasped the concepts of living. Good. I touched you years ago with an affliction. In your eyes you feel you have failed most of your life on this Earth. I understand. Most people feel as you do. Go about their existence under false pretenses. They are forever satisfied with mediocrity. Lives never fullfilled. So it is. So it is with you mijo? No? Well then to fully love life, to fully love me you must die. I have no room for that ego of Paul that I let exsist on Earth. That ego of self must die.
Listen. I'm talking to you. Listen. Not just to my words in a book but in all things. The butterfly that rests on your hand, the dog that licks your face and the star that shines bright from light years away. That is all me. Delight in what I send you. Suffer what I put you through. I have to test your spirit. Then I know you can endure the next journey. But kill that ego. Now. Your affliction of the flesh is about done. You have learned so much and come along way. I pleased mijo. But I feel you haven't really taken me in fully. You are still resistent and in fear of loving me fearfully. Only then, when you can embody me in all you do, then you can fully pass away. When you can leave your name behind is when you have killed your old self.
I know I talk as an ancient grandmaster of martial arts. But you are a man that can connect to my love in this manner. So be it. Yoda talk it is. Now in your reality you can be completely lost while being completely at peace. I've seen it. Your whole life. As a little one, you were often on your own and you brought joy to your Mother. As a little one, I gave you a huge emotional cross. You have to be honest with what it has done to you, your family and all your relations. I know your heart and where you want it to be when you are done with this Earth. Mijo, its ok. Cry about your pain. Hold it and give it love. It's all yours. Now put on your reading glasses. See me better now? Great but know that I'm am also all that is out of focused. So mijo, I dare you to venture now in all that is out of focused in your life. Trust that I'm with you and together we can make sense of all that dosen't. Detach from self and come with me. Ill be here mijo. Waiting."