I had told my girlfriend this morning that today's post would be lite and full of laughter. But by golly after seeing the huge response of my tales of booze, sex and fame chasing, maybe I'm onto something here. I mean I got stories to tell. I have after all been to the highest mountain of acting success , had gorgeous lovers and gaggles of friends.
But really, no. In reality the highest acting accolade I earned was guest star on a few TV shows. Though dating models feed my instant gratification, it absolutely did nothing for my self respect and my overall respect for women. And those gaggle of friends? With all those pool parties, drug hazy condo hangouts and endless boozy brunches? Not a single one came to my aid when I fell from grace. So those stories of past may make for a great tv series, but the reality is I was the walking dead. I was a soul-less corpse feeding off family, friends and lovers. So there will be no romanticizing of the past, only honest lessons will serve me and more importantly to those men reading my words. These daily posts have become a road map of my recovery, a life journey that as me, Paul Saucido.
But here is the deal. with writing my most recent posts, I have gotten a lot of calls, emails, comments and private messages of love and support. So this says to me that I'm not the only one with "walking dead" stories. I am not alone. And whoever is reading this know that you aren't alone either. There is no hell that you can't come back from, don't listen for moment to those people with pitchforks that may tell you other wise. You are strong, courageous and beautiful. Because of these wonderful declarations of support and warmth, I, Paul Saucido, promise that I will never go back. I will never tackle a problem alone. I will reach out to a trusted friend nearby or family member a far. I will hit my knees and ask God for his powerful will to guide my thoughts and decisions. I will journal out my heartache of the day. I will attend recovery therapy and/or group meetings. I will exercise daily and meditate on my heartbeat, sweat and blood that my workouts produce. Breathing out the doubt, letting in the courage.
Men, here I just gave you bullet point tools you can try in your recovery. Let me repeat it again, as sometimes we need to hear new ideas twice and three times till our comprehension catches up.
Keys to working on oneself self with others.
Reach out to trusted people.
Recovery group meetings.
Group exercise, preferable martial arts and yoga.
Meditate with others.
Check in with your body; heart rate and exertion are key to "sweating it out."
Before I go and enjoy this gorgeous day I want to remind how important it is to be joyful. Joyful covers it all; laughter, dance, love and warmth. Its the best approach to your recovery. In short, don't be too serious about it all. Life is wonderfully absurd, we shouldn't you be? See you on down the road.