I love beer. For the past ten years of living in Austin, Texas, I've grown quite fond of the cervezas. The shiner brand of seasonal is always something to look forward to. During the winter they come out with the Holiday Cheer! Juicy mixture of pecans and peaches. Guzzle guzzle them down with any meal or really any occasion for me. SO easy and smooth going down. Another one of their delicious concoctions is the Rudy Redbird. Good Lord! The blend of grapefruit and ginger during the summer months are my go to after workouts, lunches, dinners or the weekends. Summer and Winter, covered and brought to you by Shiner!
I love love Tequila. And not the Patron or Cuervo crap, I'm talking tequila! In this order, Corralejo, Tres Generaciones and Heradura. And a shot is never slurped down but sipped slowly. When down to the bottom a simple touch to the lips would satiate my buds to my core. Slow and steady. Again, after work or better yet in between teacher sessions I hit a shot and all is balanced in the world again. With people or not, a beer and a shot became my go to for the day's challenges.
My intake last summer became very pronounced to me. A beer a shot be came 3 or 4 beers and a few shots. Weekend social drinking became a daily occurrence. My health as a martial arts teacher got to an all time low. What's going on Paul? Well in simple honest words I became a mild alcoholic. I was very depressed still from last year's tumultuous break up and my loneliness took over my self worth. All that hard self work I had been doing on myself; therapy, church, prayer, meditation, martial arts training and honest friendships had become in jeopardy. So when my friend Kristin suggested in late August that we go on the wagon, one month become our birthdays, I jumped at it! Those first three weeks were the worst. It had become a habit, to guzzle one or two down a day. I hit the carbonated drinks hard. Soda water, sodas, ginger ale and sparking waters. They really helped me get through the initial weeks. Then my health came back right away. training and energy picked up. this with better sleep started bringing back the happier Paul back.
It was never my intent to not drink again. I didn't join AA or get a sponsor. But I did follow and used some of their tools of recovery. I also verbally started talking to God. I know what you are thinking right now, Paul is talking to the clouds or what? In a sense yes. This cloud talking while on walks or bike rides slowly yet sure made my road clear again. My friendships are whole and real. I'm their for my family and those in need that come across my path.
Now I will probably drink again in my life time. But this five month break as of today has been nothing but a resurrection for me. So I have faced some tough times of late where getting a six pack of Shiner cheer would make my momentary blues vanish. But our ghosts tend to reappear when we least expect them. So facing them sober is the greatest gift I can give myself today. And like I said on my face book page, if I can do it, so can you my amigos. So goodbye for now beer. Laters to the liquids of tequila. You shall be missed. See you on down the road.